He need not have alleged such reiterated excuses. The truth
was, he was restrained and uncomfortable at Ford Bank ever since
Ellinor's confidence. He could not rightly calculate on the most
desirable course for his own interests, while his love for her was
constantly being renewed by her sweet presence. Away from her, he could
judge more wisely. Nor did he allege any false reasons for his
departure; but the sense of relief to himself was so great at his recall
home, that he was afraid of having it perceived by others; and so took
the very way which, if others had been as penetrating as himself, would
have betrayed him.
Mr. Wilkins, too, had begun to feel the restraint of Ralph's grave
watchful presence. Ellinor was not strong enough to be married; nor was
the promised money forthcoming if she had been. And to have a fellow
dawdling about the house all day, sauntering into the flower-garden,
peering about everywhere, and having a kind of right to put all manner of
unexpected questions, was anything but agreeable. It was only Ellinor
that clung to his presence--clung as though some shadow of what might
happen before they met again had fallen on her spirit. As soon as he had
left the house she flew up to a spare bedroom window, to watch for the
last glimpse of the fly which was taking him into the town. And then she
kissed the part of the pane on which his figure, waving an arm out of the
carriage window, had last appeared; and went down slowly to gather
together all the things he had last touched--the pen he had mended, the
flower he had played with, and to lock them up in the little quaint
cabinet that had held her treasures since she was a tiny child.
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